Sunday, July 11, 2010
hi!
i recently attended a briefing for nus students on how to go about doing the silly bidding thing that nus students have to do.
it was confusing, to say the least.
it left me wondering after the talk: WHO in the world created this extremely complicated system man! bidding, balloting, CORS, IVLE.. i was tired just listening to the talk! heh
my new friend from vcf who was also in archi had actually told me about this talk (i have no idea why i didnt know about it). she had attended the SDE camp before the vcf camp, so she had a whole group of og mates to hang out with. so i stuck with her and her og, and another girl i knew from vcf.
i dont know why, but i have this fear of sitting along in huge lecture halls hahaha. i wont be able to concentrate at all, cos i would be thinking about what other people may be thinking about this loner of a girl. so i guess i have to thank God for friends who were there with me (:
i also met some of my secondary sch friends!! they are really nice people and i have a feeling, im going to enjoy my time in archi (the time with my friends at least) (:
anyway, after the talk, we just hung around and started chatting. my friend had to rush off, so i was left with the group and my friends og. they were really nice at first, but then they started talking about this weird guy in their group (who had "something wrong with him" in their opinion)
the conversation evolved to be a gossip session about how the guy volunteered himself to join a pageant of sorts, and did other weird things. they said that if you see this guy by the name of ______, AVOID HIM at all costs!
as they were saying these mean things about him, i remembered how my friend had introduced me to her og: the friend that she had made from VCF camp
and i thought about how my testimony would have been if i had contributed to the gossip, or shown any approval for what they were saying.
and earlier on, there was this guy who kept saying the F word. it was really natural, crafted very nicely into his sentences. it was not like he was angry or anything, just using the F word in replacement of the word 'very'. it really shocked me, but the people around didnt seem as stunned as i was. it was probably... very natural to them.
it was then that i truly realised how sheltered i've been these past years of my life. i was never really exposed to such things, having grown up in a Christian environment up till secondary school, and moving on to a very mild school, Nanyang JC. i kinda feel like ive been thrown into this new place, which seems so unfamiliar, and where i dont quite fit in.
i guess the song "We are pilgrims on the journey of the narrow road" is really apt for where i am right now. i pray that i will hold fast to all my beliefs without compromising, looking to earning favour with God over man.
being the extremely short-sighted person that i am, i know that i may lose sight of the things that truly matter over the next few years, but i pray that God will prod me back onto the right path each time that i go astray.
avoid the aliens;
11:48 PM
