Monday, June 15, 2015
i recently learned that a girl from my architecture cohort passed away on her grad trip last month. ):
when i heard the news, i was really paralyzed in fear and disbelief, and i could barely think of anything else for the whole day. its the first time that i've experienced the passing of someone who was the same age as me.
i guess i was once naive to think that proposals/ marriages of my friends were the only major things that i would be seeing more often on facebook, and then something huge like this comes along, and reminds me that life is not always predictable.
i am reminded of the urgency that i need to have, because life is so unpredictable. one moment you are alive, and the next you are not. i did not know her as a close friend, but i did know that she was a hardworking girl, and someone with a kind and genuine heart. i'm saddened by her passing, but it is a stark reminder for me to stop taking things for granted. it is a reminder that this world is not my home, and i am just passing through! i also don't want to be left regretting that i did not do enough to tell my friends and loved ones about the only important thing in life!
i had a dream last night about heaven. i distinctly remember seeing april in heaven, but i didn't see some people who professed to be Christian - they were actively involved in going about the motions of a "Christian". it made me so sad and so scared! it saddens me to think that there are many people who truly believe that they are saved, yet they live lives as if Jesus didn't matter. It saddens me to think what Jesus would say to these people at the gates of heaven...
but im so thankful for my salvation! even though I, in my dream-state, am really theologically unsound and so doubtful, i'm so thankful that i don't have to earn my salvation, because i will always fail. even though its so natural to equate our spiritual state to "how saved we are", i must always remind myself to rest in the finished work of Christ, rather than these dirty rags (:
avoid the aliens;
1:56 AM
