Monday, June 29, 2015
its hard to let go entirely and trust in God's purposes. i think most of us have a vision for what our lives would be in the future... i know i do. i envision being an architect, maybe eventually attaining the level of senior architect where i would (hopefully) not have to work as long hours as a beginner architect. i envision coming back to a nice family house which i built for myself, and coming home to lovely children, whom i'm always praying for, and a spouse who provides mutual support to glorify God together with our lives.
its very hard for me not accept that maybe this is not the reality that God wants me to have! having this vision to work towards keeps me grounded that i am headed somewhere, but what if God has alternate plans? it feels like it would shatter my whole world because i cannot imagine any other reality.
maybe i am just sheltered. i've always gotten whatever i wanted if i worked hard enough, but maybe now, God is taking that away from me. something that i always tell others is that: Maybe God is using this situation to test your faith in Him. It is not the actual outcome that matters, but what ultimately matters is HOW you dealt with it.
so ironic how i have to tell this to myself and pray to God to help my unbelief.
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avoid the aliens;
7:54 PM
