Friday, April 28, 2006
i've just thought of a new plan where i can blog for anyday of the week just by going on friday!! i will write all the stuff i wanna say and then write it all out on fri! gd idea rite!! heehhee. ok. here it is...
17th February 06
today was a bad day. got scolded by mum and i couldnt stop crying. my eyes were probably puffy much later. i dont really know why i do these things. i wish i just stut up.i really regret it now. im sorry mum. i really mean it this time. please forgive me for my rebellious behavior but you have to believe me, im trying. im trying to be a better person changed through His love, but it is just so hard.i need lots of help, Lord.
well maybe today wasnt that bad... i got "good" grades, got back ballet results and ran PFT. i think i did acceptably well. 13:42 mins. at least is is an "A", which is 14:21or something like that. tomorrow is 5-item test. i wanna get A for everything! haha.
guess what>> after expressing my feelings on pen and paper, i feel much better... ok. tmr got Physics Spa test! gotta go revise. see you! :)
19th February 06
english was so boring today. she kept nagging at people even though they did nothing wrong. she treats people unfairly and everything. today, i didnt bring my english book, left it at home cos i couldnt find it. then manyothers didnt bring too. she let them go the the lockers to get it (which is illegal during school hours). i couldnt cause mine was at home. then she fined us $1.00 for not having it but did not fine the ppl who forgot to take it out of the locker!!! so unfair. reminds me of some ppl i noe... my classmates dont like her.. they make fun of her as a lousy teacher. she isnt that good a teacher but you shouldnt treat her the way you do! she is just a normal person like you and me... i know i may get killed by Janice when she reads this but i feel that we Christians should not behave in this horrid manner. it makes it look like we are only Christians by name! ok. i will shut up now. sorry if i offended anyone.. :)
26th February 06
i havent been doing my QT!! im just either too tired or too lazy to do it... Why?! Why is this happening to me?!?! I'n distancing myself from God, or what! this is frustration. One moment, Im spritually hight , and the next moment, back to square one..... argh :(
everyone i see looks like they are all on top of things, notroubles, no difficult situations... only me... and maybe my sis(cause she is the only one i would share my secrets and problems with...im anti-social) i find it hard to talk to ppl nowadays, so irritating. why am i so shy?! i hate myself for being such a stupid anti-social nerd (which is much worser than the nerds in my school as they are not stupid and snti social.) sometimes, i really dont noe what people seee of me... i dont have huge talents (mostly small ones that wont get me anywhere), im annoying, secretive, shy stupid, egoistic(only toward family members)...====/..
i hate function graphs!!! tmr got functions test!! ahh!! nightmare that ive gotta wake up to .haha. i havent finished studying and you noe what? I DONT CARE!!! wow. it feels goo man..:)haha. ok .i think i will go and sleep now. im to talkative when talking to myself(im insane....really) bye guys! :D
-jamie-
avoid the aliens;
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