Saturday, May 26, 2012
been reflecting on the last week of working at the japanese restaurant... im sure when i got this job, i really didnt know what i was getting into... i dont really want to elaborate much on it, but i have just had a pretty hard time at work. its not the actual work that i am having a hard time with, its the people! ): i never thought that i would have such a hard time as i know im not a person who gets into conflicts easily! i guess i just find it really hard to "click" with them... they were just brought up differently from the way i was brought up! i guess that just needs some getting use to.
on one of these days last week, i was questioning why i was facing what i was facing.. and just today, i got a revelation! not sure why i didnt see it before! maybe i was being tested for my patience and pride! i know it doesnt sound like a good thing, but i know that ive been struggling with pride for the longest time! i guess this is just one of the more "obvious" tests that ive seen! its been on my mind for quite a while, and ive tried praying to ask God to remove my pride from me... and i think thats what He's doing right now! its funny but i guess i drew some encouragement from that, knowing that God is really working in my life! (:
its extremely hard, cos when the trial of patience or testing of my pride comes, its so easy to just give in to my human nature and "fight for my rights", but i just need a minute to think about what is the "Christian" thing to do. i know this seems like a really small thing when i compare it to what Jesus had to go through on earth! i mean, He knew what everyone was thinking about Him, even His family thought He was crazy! can you imagine how He felt! ): then i look at my situation: this is just a small aspect of my life, whereas i still have my church family that i can rely on and find encouragement, but Jesus was really pretty much alone on earth! even His disciples failed Him so many times!
so, in some ways, i thank God for this trial! im thankful that i know He is moulding me to be more and more like His Son! i thank Him that He promises that He will always be with me when i feel alone, and is my guidance when i dont know what to do. i thank Him that he is merciful, and promises to forgive me even when i have failed Him so many times! i thank Him that He knows my limits and will never give me more than i can bear! (:
i hope i can be a testimony for Him in the coming week, and rely on His strength to get through it!!
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