Monday, November 26, 2012
i am so thankful for yesterday's sermon! it was really different from his usual style of teaching, and i think i like it (: i was surprised at how he challenged us about what we are living for.. (: thank God for pastor kwan!
anyway, i was affirmed today that whatever friendships/ relationships i let go for God's sake, he will invite me into His family of brothers and sisters and parents, and into His arms. and that in the face of suffering, i will have my family of God to lean on and seek encouragement from. (:
was also reminded about how, many things can easily become earthly possessions! not only wealth, but there are also other things which may be indications that we are trying to store treasures on earth.. some examples that he gave were: hobbies/ the pursuit for pleasure/ achievements/ performance/ acceptance/ popularity/ power/ fame etc.
i guess its always easy to say but much harder to act on it? because if these things are things that you have always treasured your whole life, it would be really hard! but there is encouragement in that when we turn our eyes to Jesus alone, only then will these things diminish in importance in our lives. i read in a John Piper book about this, and he said that its not about diminishing the value of these pleasures, but rather recognising and experiencing a greater pleasure which is found in God alone!
recently ive been really dissappointed at myself and the way that ive been behaving.. sometimes i just feel so annoyed and i just want to go back in time to rectify these things.. i dont understand how God still loves me for who i am, even when im so fickle, and so unfaithful. His love truly surpasses human understanding, and i think i have soooo much more to learn! ):
it seems like the more i know about His word, the more i fall short of His standard of righteousness... its discouraging and it seems like i would never change, but He assures me that He who has begun a good work in me will bring it to completion in the day of the Lord's return (: i honestly cannot wait to see Jesus, and put an end to this tensions that are battling within me. i cant wait to see Him and to be like Him! and to be in perfect fellowship with Him and the people who love Him wholeheartedly (`:
anyway im sorry if i sound incoherent.. did not mean to confuse you (if i did!).. im just not really in the right frame of mind right now, i guess i needa think through things.. :/
avoid the aliens;
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