Monday, February 18, 2013
im realising that it is really difficult to be a christian architecture student/ architect/ designer! its a profession that forces you to think of the difficult/ sad/ and ugly things in life, and constantly invent new ways to overcome them. to be honest, i do love thinking... and ive really had an enriching time here in school... it has broadened my mind! but one thing that i find to be extremely conflicting with what i believe in, is that it demands my "all"!
the teachers always say that there is no such thing as "after work" hours for them... because most of the time, they spend it thinking about what they will work on during working hours! haha what did i get myself into... :
and naturally, as a Christian, i want to be thinking and meditating on the things of the Bible throughout the day...
its difficult to be a Christian!
its difficult to be an architect...
furthermore its quite hard for me to think deeply (i need some time), so its really hard to switch from Christianity to archi and then back to Christianity again :/
i'm not sure if this is God's way of telling me that i should do something else, but i really cant imagine myself doing any other course? but i just dont want to look back on my life and regret what i did or didnt do for the glory of God...
maybe God has placed me here so that i can reach out to the few architects that are Christians? thats the only logical reason that i can think of...
or maybe it is actually possible to be a faithful Christian architect! maybe it will cause me to depend on Him more when im faced with horribly stressful situations.. i dont know..
life is difficult.
but i guess it is difficult in different ways for different people...
but God will get me through this, i just know it (:
avoid the aliens;
10:29 PM
