Saturday, April 06, 2013
wow thank God for the awesome workshop on discipling a child's heart today! at first i was a bit hesitant to come, but im glad that God planned everything such that i decided that i should come. im so glad that i did!! (:
i really thank God for using George as such a powerful testimony and mouthpiece to bless us with the wisdom that was given to him. its so awesome to see someone so moved by God, and so passionate in missions and so transformed by his beliefs. i often need that reminder that everywhere is a mission field and that i should always be a testimony because my identity is in Christ (:
i just had so many thoughts after the session, and i felt like a was bombarded with a whole lot of things that i need to get right, and things i need to work on. it really feels like im preparing for battle, and i know that with God as my king, the victory is already won :D what an amazing thought that is!
i also realised that i havent been giving my all to the children... i realised that with so many children that come from unchurched homes! so sunday school teachers are essentially like their spiritual parents, and that really shocked me! i dont feel ready AT ALL to be a mother, what more to shepherd over the lives of 5 children! i always thought that sunday school was just a commitment for sunday, and maybe a weekday for planning, but i realised that it is really a huge responsibility that God has given to me, and i really dont want to take it lightly.
i feel like sometimes i even struggle with simple truths, and i feel soooo unprepared to be a "parent" but this verse encourages me
"The preparations of the heart belong to man, but the answer of the tongue is from the Lord." - Proverbs 16:1
i know that as long as i am faithful to Him, he will guide the things that i say, and i trust that he can use me, with all my insecurities and weaknesses, because He is so powerful!
at a certain point in the workshop, i started to feel quite discouraged. i felt like there are so many standards to keep, and so much responsibilty, that i felt like i am not even fit to be serving in this area. i felt like i needed to be a George in order to be effective. but i know from this children's song that we sang repeatedly at the workshop
Our God is a great big God
and He holds us in His hand!
such a priviledge to be a child of God and to have God's protection and love (:
and how i know he is changing me to be used for his great purposes, no matter how inadequate i feel.
thank You big daddy in the sky hehe (:
avoid the aliens;
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