Wednesday, May 08, 2013
okay.. i must admit maybe i was over reacting. now that i look back, it wasnt that bad that i was called back for the examination. i just thank God for the nice crit panel and for constructive comments (:
well well thats typical jamie i must say. never trusting, always worrying.
but elsa recently showed the yd an article about singlehood and the idea of "waiting". so many times, people in church convince us all that when we wait, God will bless us with a spouse. if he hasnt, maybe he wants us to be fully satisfied in him before he will give us a partner. but we often forget that "having Him is everything, and not a means to the life we think He would want us to have." we dont devote ourselves to Him so that he will grant us a spouse, but we devote ourselves to Him because we LOVE Him!
it sounds to stupid to say, but alot of times i subtly believe this, like i think that maybe its because i'm not being satisfied in Him that He is withholding a partner from me. God withholds nothing GOOD from his loved ones, and i know that my life is in his hands, even if it means that i stay single forever...
sometimes i think its easier too, cos marriage is the union of 2 broken people, its like twice the amount of struggles, twice the amount of pain. ive had quite a fair share of my own and i have to worry about another's?!? hahaha
and there wont be the temptation to love another more than God!
the good thing about being a single, is that i can get the benefits of confiding in other sisters in Christ without having to feel the weight of an intimate relationship (more emotionally involved). i guess that leaves more energy for reaching out and less of having to 'sort things out'.
haha im not sure if this is a sign, but im starting to get quite sold on the idea of singlehood!
avoid the aliens;
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