Monday, June 24, 2013
i feel like just locking myself in my room!!
i wish there was somewhere that i can just be alone for once. to be able to cry if i wanted to, scream and no one would hear me or judge me, and a place that i can just talk to God with no one looking on, in the quietness of the night.
so we were talking about family worship ay? doesnt seem like it would work anytime soon. i dont think i can bring myself to tell her anything, without her judging me, or passing hurtful comments at me. cos right now, all i wanna do is be alone.
and maybe having to watch that movie made it all worse. realising that the reality that i immersed myself in for that whole 2hrs, was not MY reality. and then waking up and counting the differences.
arghhhhhz.
im not being emo, im just realising that being alone really has its benefits. i feel like just walking out to the park to maybe sit on a bench and contemplate life, but its kinda late, and i need to be up early for work tmr ): maybe things will feel better after i do my QT and get some rest.
avoid the aliens;
11:47 PM
