Thursday, September 05, 2013
i was just talking to april about how if we all had passion and joy for the Lord, how so many things would change! im not complaining, because i know that i am guilty of it too!
but i was just super encouraged by elder hung choo, and how he holds so much joy even though he may not have a support group (like YD). i can really see that he is really fuelled by his love for God, and that he is constantly being supported and fed by God's word rather than friends or support groups. he is really an inspiration for me to keep my eyes focused on the hope that we have in eternity, rather than all the discouragements we have here on earth. :`)
an interesting analogy that april said was that life is often more like the flicking or switching of channels rather than a full tv show/ movie. its sooooo easy to get distracted with all the "adverts" and "flashing neon signs".
for me, even just watching one episode of sitcom on tv can derail me from thinking about the things of God for the whole day! or even being too caught up with thinking of an appropriate sunday school craft, or even getting swayed by whatsapp conversations, or even reading a thought provoking article about architecture.
i can even safely (but not proudly) say that i dont think i have ever gone through one whole day just being totally and wholly focused on God. ): apart from those ultra contemplative days, it just feels like quiet time and real life is quite different things.. i could have been really convinced about something in qt, but after i take a bath, choose clothes, get ready for school, print my notes, somehow the lessons just slip my mind, and i think im ready to take on the day, when in actual fact im not even being changed by the Word.
its a horrible acknowlegment, i know, but its been a real struggle for me.
i think that is the root of a lot of my problems too! because so often my joy is drained, because i dont meditate on the word of God during the day! and i get so discouraged by others because i dont remember that God is sovereign. its so easy for me to say right now, but having to think of it when the discouragement comes, is really a whole different issue : /
God, i pray that you will show me your power by helping me to accomplish the things that my spirit wills, but my flesh fails! this is one area which i really want to offer into your hands, because i know i have no means of doing it on my own, and trust me, ive tried! help me with all the unbelief that i have about your power, so that i can learn about your character and love you more, and in turn testify of that life-changing love. Amen
avoid the aliens;
11:20 PM
