Wednesday, September 11, 2013
lately i had a health scare, and up till now, i still dont know if its something to be worried about.. i even had a moment where my life flashed before my eyes! but its times like these that you suddenly realise, with fresh meaning, that life is
too short to be wasted chasing after life. the fact of the matter is that none of us know when we are gonna die, but yet we often live like we know that we arent gonna die
so soon. in fact, some of us (or most of us) imagine ourselves having a family, a good job, and a good retirement. but what if none of this actually happens in your lifetime?
its funny how in these situations, its so much easier to think straight! whereas when you are living your "normal life", its hard to focus on the unseen rather than what is seen..
so all this got me thinking.. and the first thing that came to my head was the thought about "how much i have done for God in my lifetime."
a part of me wished that i had done more to love his people, and to share about the wonders of the word to my brothers and sisters. i wish i had been less... passive. i wished that i had used every opportunity to encourage others. there were so many times that i have failed miserably at that, often doing the opposite.
then i thought, God must be disappointed ):
but that thought was soon interrupted by another thought: "in Christ alone, my hope is found" and that is when i started to smile.
sure there are things that i wished i had done better, but i am assured that i am a child of God.
i also echo the words of Paul:
"For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate." - Romans 7:15
God knows me, and He was the one who created me, so im sure that when He sees me, he will be welcoming me into His presence, rather that punishing me for all the things that i didnt do for Him. He is an amazing example of forgiveness, and you have no idea how liberating that feels to be forgiven. (:
but its great also to know that i am not on my deathbed yet! so i will not be left regretting. there are so many things that can still be done for God, and im not going to let this slip by! every day is a gift from God, and we only really treasure it when we realise how easily we can lose it (:
haha but dont worry about me friends! just thankful that God used this situation to teach me something about reality (:
avoid the aliens;
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