Saturday, March 01, 2014
im thankful for AG today, (how ever imperfect it is at the moment) and im so thankful for where God has put me. He has really sheltered me all my life, because He knows what I can and cannot take. He has placed me in a christian family (and extended family) - which is so rare! and also placed me in a church that is faithful to the word! and has placed me in regenerate which challenges me to be a faithful testimony! so many people out there do not have either one of these privileges...
im also thankful for the people that God has put a burden on my heart to tell them the gospel! on one hand, im really hoping that God will use me, but on the other hand, im trembling in fear.
1. im scared that they will be put off by Christianity because of the way i say/present the gospel. (someone else can do it better than me!)
But i know that their salvation is already predestined by God, and if they were meant to be saved, they would be!
2. im scared that they will ask me questions that i cannot answer/ that i will answer and later realise what i said was wrong.
But i know that God calls us to be testimonies of what we KNOW, and not what we do not know.
3. im scared that my relationship with them will be strained.
But i know that my desire for acceptance by God should be greater than my desire for acceptance by man.
4. im scared that my life is not enough evidence/ proof for them to see God working in me.
But i know that the Bible is an amazing piece of evidence and it is enough for salvation.
even though i reason out my fears and realise that all my fears are illogical, somehow something is still stopping me. i really have to get over this desire to be accepted by man and instead desire acceptance from God!
i think it is also because i have never had the good experience of impacting any person's life positively, that i feel that everything that i "touch" will fail. but i think i need faith: to believe that it is the Holy Spirit who works, not me!
Empower me!
avoid the aliens;
1:49 AM
