Monday, June 09, 2014
i think the thing which scares me most, is not that i'll be single. it is that i'll be single, and have no close friends. Yeah, everyone will have friends, but close friends are hard to come by, especially when they have their own lives & their own families. somehow i don't think it will be easier to make closer friends once i get older, because of priorities & commitments.
i'm not sure if this springs from my need to be accepted by man, but even if it did, i just don't know how to think otherwise. how can one live life knowing that she was never really loved by anyone, or that she wasn't even special enough to be someone's best friend. wondering how everyone else seems to manage fine, and wondering what she is doing wrong.
maybe God has a reason for this, i just have to have confidence in His purposes, that one day He will make me like Him when I see Him on that awaited day :`)
in the meantime, there is church camp today! hope that it will help me have a bigger view of eternity and a bigger love for God!
avoid the aliens;
3:48 AM
