Thursday, July 24, 2014
i have a strange habit of sleeping at 2am nowadays. there is a certain calm that does exist in the rest of the day... a calm that is extra conducive for late night blogging contemplations haha.
lately i've been thinking about my relationship with God, and how i've been so distracted with recent events that it's been difficult trying to get any "connection" with Him. there just has been so many things to think about and do that it seems like God has just been pushed into the corner in my life ):
i've been praying and praying to have that closeness that i used to have with Him... i'm not sure if i'm placing too much emphasis on my emotions, or even how i can change this at all. i have been trying to read the bible and do bible studies, but my mind would wander. it has been difficult trying to be alone with Him in my thoughts, because there are just so many other things to think about ):
i guess it is because i have so many recurring, unanswered questions that i wish i could just tell someone...
i wish there were something practical that i could do, rather than just wait-it-out... i'm wondering what is the purpose in this particular season of life? :1
avoid the aliens;
1:52 AM
