Thursday, July 10, 2014
i've been feeling even more anti-social nowadays... not sure why, but i just haven't been very motivated to start conversations with anybody. conversations are sometimes so tiring and sometimes, its just not worth the effort!
i wish sometimes i could just stop talking, and it wouldnt be awkward. it would just be a pause in conversation. i hate having the feeling like i need to fill up the silence with empty small talk. i wish talking was less of a chore :P
i guess the reason why i feel this way is because its so difficult to find someone whom you can just click with and who shares the same interest in conversation topics. having to anticipate reactions is also a tough one especially when getting to know a new person. because you really never know how they could react, until you do / say something you really regret haha.
its days like today when i wonder what it would be like in heaven when we are all raptured and brought to the new heaven and new earth. when we see Him, we shall become like Him! what an exciting prospect! there is no more need for awkward conversations, but everyone will have a passion for loving God and serving Him. there will be endless things to talk about, like about the endless mercies He is shown to us, and we will not have to fear any social rejection or have social norms (i think!)
i honestly can't wait for that day! the idea of it is scary and sometimes lonely (seeing how we all eventually die alone) but i know that what He has promised will come to completion! (: imagine that, we will live in perfect harmony for eternity! :D
haha wow i dont even know how i managed to come to this topic, but i guess my problems seem so small and petty when i envision eternity! thank You Lord (:
avoid the aliens;
6:24 PM
