Tuesday, October 21, 2014
i'm confused as to why anyone would ever want to marry? i mean, you have to stay with the person for the rest of your life. i wonder, do they ever get bored?
i just watched this mildly disturbing show called Mrs Harris. its disturbing to know that Mrs Harris was someone who wanted love so bad, that she was willing to live with the man she loved openly cheating on her. she couldn't let him go. he had once loved her and proposed to her, but later decided that he could not go along with the marriage because his eyes kept wandering to other women. she keeps trying to kill herself throughout the show though. she was an extremely depressed woman who loved a man who could not love her back. he could not love anyone for that matter, not even his mistress. so one day, she decides that she's had enough and decides to go and see him one last time before she kills herself. but when she gets to his house, she shoots him 4 times, and then everytime she tried to shoot herself, the gun would fail. and thats how the story ended.
"all that I know is I dont know how to be something you'll miss"
i didn't feel angry at her somehow, but i felt so so sad. that someone would love somebody so much to subject herself to this kind of hurt and rejection. i know that i could never do that. but her rationale was that she was comforted by the fact that she could be sure that she was his for a while, even if it was for the shortest while, and even if that moment was long over. she was depressed, but really overly optimistic!
maybe that is something that i don't understand about life. i don't understand how things can change so quickly, or how people are so dependent on one another. ok maybe i do, but i wish it weren't so. maybe we're just all better off alone.
haha i'm sure its just a passing thought which i would look back on in the future and cringe at how crazy i sound. ah well.
avoid the aliens;
11:29 PM
