Sunday, November 30, 2014
had the most crazy rollercoaster kind of feelings today... weddings somehow have a way of doing that to people! i was so happy to see 'ah ma ruth' and being reunited with my YD today (:
the message at galilee was also really really impactful & humbling for me. its the passage that never fails to cause deep sorrow at the state of what i am: 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 (the Love passage) it just made me so sad, but im so thankful that it didnt just stop there with me wallowing in self-pity. i'm so thankful for the Holy Spirit who has comforted me that all my strivings are just a part of growing. Failure may seem like i am disappointing God, but i am assured that He still loves me, and is sovereign over my spiritual growth and has triumphed over sin! :`) i honestly cant wait for the day where i will see Him face to face, and be like Him, and to love Him with my whole being.
maybe im feeling slightly unstable (like im going to burst into tears any moment) also because i am going to vietnam tomorrow. i am really scared somehow, maybe because it is an unfamiliar place with unfamiliar people, doing unfamiliar things.. i hope i don't suddenly have an emotional breakdown on the plane or something : / but i'm hoping for the opportunity to spend some time with God and to think things through... there are just so many things to think about! perhaps i might even get to know my school friends better.. i hope things will turn out alright!
i just wish i had more time to sit down and just be alone to pray and think about things, but i haven't packed yet! i have so many worries about this trip that i sometimes wish i were not going... but i guess meeting zx, nikki and claire there would be a nice break that i am looking forward to...
ok i shall stop procrastinating and get to packing!
avoid the aliens;
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