I have been praying for guidance on what area of service i should be engaged in next year, when God helped me to realize that what is choose does not necessarily have to be what i will do for the rest of my life! i think i put so much pressure on myself to make the right decision that i forgot that life is a journey, and not a destination that i need to get to! 

I mean, what is the worst that can happen?? my kids may think that i'm a terrible teacher, but i guess it will only be for 6 months! (and hopefully i will realize by then that i am terrible hahaha) the worst that could happen is that maybe i realize that teaching older kids is not my 'calling'! I guess i just saw myself 'stuck' with them and having to follow them all the way up to their late teens, which really scared me, as i don't even know the kids that i am placed with (yet), and i didn't want to be a hindrance to their spiritual life. 

I think that maybe i might have forgotten that life rarely consists of a straight path that we are to follow. we often go one path, then take many little u-turns and turns, go straight, and then u-turn again.. and maybe that is okay! maybe that is the process of growing and learning that would otherwise not have occurred if life were just a straight road. and also, it is a reminder that God is sovereign over all things! Even my weaknesses..

So... I'm thanking God for clarity! Its strange how I didn't see this earlier, but i am convinced that it was just God giving me this clarity of mind and answering my prayers (: thank You Lord (: