Monday, December 08, 2014
Why should I feel discouraged
Why should the shadows come
Why should my heart feel lonely
And long for heaven and home
When Jesus is portion
A constant friend is He
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know He watches over me
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know He watches over me
I sing because I'm happy
I sing because I'm free
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know He watches over me
I am very thankful that this year has been a year of learning and growing. Though there were some rough times, He has been faithful! This year end is special because it marks the 10th year that I dedicated my life to Christ! wow 10 years! but it somehow feels like i've got so much more to learn and experience.
I was just reminded of this song, which now holds new meaning for me. It occurred to me that "Jesus is my portion"! I don't think I understood this before, but I thank God that He has shown me that i shouldn't be longing for things of this earth because I already have everything in Christ :`) Relationships come and go, but God remains a constant! I know this because He has been faithful for all these 10 years.. I know He will continue to be faithful and complete the work begun in me (:
Recently went for a BGR talk for YF. I realised that it is one thing to understand that we are supposed to seek God first, but it is another thing to really live it out! I realised that many girls (me included) are always "waiting" for God. It seems that we are waiting for that magical relationship which would start our "happily ever after". But the truth of the matter is that we already have everything in Christ! Why are we waiting on an imperfect relationship to satisfy us? It never will.. It was only meant to point to the relationship between Christ and the church, which we HAVE already!
I know that some people may say that spouses can help each other in their spiritual growth, but somehow I don't know how that would really work if both parties already love God! It personally just feels to me like an excuse... But i guess it is because I have yet to be in such a relationship, where both parties are more effective for God's kingdom because they are together. Somehow I have a feeling that I may never understand... My stand is that after life's journey, I will be held accountable individually! He has shown me that I cannot rely on anyone else for my spiritual growth, because it is between me and God. No matter what the state of my relationships with others is, or how others view me. We can easily put on facades of godliness, but God sees our hearts.
Yes, starting a family is a ministry in itself, so I can understand that it is a choice, just like choosing between serving in YF or Sunday School. Maybe it isn't such a big deal (:
Anyway, I'm looking forward to the many more years (God-willing) of learning and growing! I'm sure that the phrase "Jesus is my portion" would hold even deeper meaning for me in the coming years (:
avoid the aliens;
7:40 PM
