Saturday, January 17, 2015
wow i just had the most difficult/ trying saturday that i've had in a while...
i guess its because i had an angel of a small group last year, but this year, i've been shifted to the group for the youngest ones... i'm not complaining, i just really had a culture shock at how short their attention spans are, and how different they are from the older ones...
i never thought that i would ever come close to losing it in the past, but now the prospects are high D: i really really need God's strength to have patience and to love them like Christ loves them! Need to try really really hard to understand where they are coming from and why they are behaving this way. I just wish that I could relate to them more.. I think they think i'm old.. hahaha
but i thank God that He has placed me in this group, not only to test my patience, but also because they are so young and impressionable and have so much more to learn! i feel like a great responsibility has been entrusted to me, to shepherd the younger ones who truly don't know the way of the cross! its so different from the older ones, who probably already know all the model answers, but are struggling in living them out. these young ones really don't know, and so all they know is disobedience! it just shows me that i was once like them, not knowing what i believed in, but i thank God for his patience and mercy on my life! And He's still working on me till this day, so i shall not have the expectations that these kids should be perfect once they are converted.
its such a high calling that i'm privileged to be a part of, but yet i know it will be a difficult year! i'm really scared somehow, but i hope that our lives will be testimonies to them that God DOES exist, and that God will use us to challenge them and stir their hearts to love Him wholeheartedly. (:
i'm excited and enormously priviledged!! (:
avoid the aliens;
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