Thursday, May 14, 2015
haha i feel like i'm in a totally different world from the one that i've been in the past few months. i guess since its possible to have too little time, its possible to have too much time too!
i'm still praying, hoping, wishing... but i think the result can't deviate much from the predictions.
sometimes i'm really really scared, and i sometimes feel so useless and weak. but it gives me great comfort to know that God is on my side! He never puts me through anything trying unless it is for a greater purpose.. Thankful to know that the Creator cares enough to mold me and test me (:
even though its really really easy to look around and compare (i don't have to look very far!), my aching heart rests in the assurance that i have in Christ - the assurance that this world is not my home! i have to keep reminding myself that the goals of the world will always fall short of the glory that is to come. its a constant battle, telling myself to look past the current circumstances, and try to look through the eyes of eternity.
even in this time, i'm reminding myself to be thankful for the little things! the fact that i even have a chance for masters education. thankful for a restful breather. thankful for how im surrounded by love even though i don't deserve it one bit. thankful for friends who supported me through difficult times. and definitely thankful to be chosen by the Lord Almighty, that one definitely tops my list! (:
just praying for a clear mind as i dive into yet another trying period. i really can only pray..
weird how the silence of the night can cause many questions to resurface in my mind.
What is my purpose? What is my life for? What does God want me to do with all the burdens that He has placed on my heart? Why am I where I am today?
i don't know how i am going to get back to sleep after this... : /
avoid the aliens;
5:00 AM
