Saturday, May 30, 2015
i had a pretty good night just thinking about things and praying.. its been a while since i've not said a hurried prayer, but i realised that i really need to dedicate time so that i can realign myself to God's purposes. its so easy to have days just pass by so quickly, and so little of my day is spent thinking about God.
i've been feeling pretty lousy lately.. because i desperately want to find the motivation to work, but i just cant! i just feel so bored/ defeated everytime i try to start work. but then i was just reflecting today and i think i've been feeling slightly scared that maybe i'm just not good enough for this line of work. so then i was reading Isaiah and it struck me that I need to remember who I am in Christ, and not to fear because God is in control! I've seen this over and over again in Isaiah and I just needed to believe it. It kind of allowed me to lay aside the pressure that i have been putting on myself, and just to treat this as an opportunity to improve my portfolio. because i have been putting all this pressure on myself to make this the best project that i have ever created in my years of education. it definitely does not feel healthy.
so i'm thankful for this short time of reflection.
in other news, i'm thankful for sisters whom i can correct and vice versa! i had recently made a pact with myself to be more open to people and say what is on my mind. because what good can amount if i just talk about it to april or keep it to myself. so i decided to talk to a sister about an issue that she has been facing for a long time. it was not as perfect as i envisioned it to be, because I'M not as perfect as i imagined myself to be! haha. but i'm so thankful that God still chooses to work through imperfect people and situations for his purposes! (: praying for myself to always keep LOVE at the forefront of my mind and to show more empathy when dealing with people, in messy situations. After all, i'm not called to change the world, because that's God's role! I'm just called to love (: I need more trust in that aspect..
looking forward to and praying for a fruitful weekend of encouragement and being encouraged! (:
avoid the aliens;
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