Monday, July 06, 2015
today i was looking through old letters from my younger days.. it was such an blessing to be able to reminisce my friends and who i used to be! such a joy to read about jokes that i have no memory of, and conversations that have long been forgotten. i'm a sucker for heartfelt letters (:
people change so so much! i wish i could tell my 16 year old me to embrace all the people around me, because the people i thought would always stay the same, were the ones that changed so drastically. I miss all the friendships and closeness that we had, because now i only have these paper memories...
i guess looking back at these letters, i recalled the place that encouragement had in the life of an emo and clueless teenager (me, if you haven't already guessed). i would never want to go back to those dark days, but i know that it is now my job to guide these young ones that God has put under my care through
their dark days.
i was just talking to nikki today, and she encouraged me in my YD endeavors. she said that even though there will be disappointments eg. the girls being uninterested/ unwilling to open up/ unpreparedness on my part/ stubbornness on their part, she reminded me to persevere because the fruit will come in God's perfect timing! It is also the Spirit who gives the growth and not me. it made me a little scared, but at the same time, really excited to meet these girls and grow closer to them... really excited to be used for God's purposes too! hope i'm not too old for them! probably need to read my old blog posts to try to relate to their life situation hahaha.
just one thing to remember is to love them patiently. God loved me so patiently through my years of stupidity, i really cannot expect these girls to change overnight/ have immediate results. its difficult to go many years without seeing any fruit, but i know that God can use all my frail efforts for His glory if he desires to. Thank God that He is more powerful than what we imagine! (:
avoid the aliens;
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