on our journey of unforeseen circumstances, we came out people who were slightly wiser/ less naiive/ more aware that people can be so different and can have so many different stories. I'm so super sheltered, and its something that i'm realllyyyyy thankful for, but I cant help but wonder about what I would be like if I were born into a different family... would the essence of me still be... me?

anyway, i still need time to sort out the mess that is in my head, but i had so many regrets. one of the biggest ones were that i crack under pressure, and that i forget who i really am in those times that really matter. i just hate myself for being so timid and scared of what people would think of me. 

but i think the events of yesterday really prepared me for the events of today. God somehow weaved all those confusions into his story, and i really think He is making me grow through these experiences! its funny how i pray for him to change me through whatever means possible, but i get so surprised when im thrown out of my comfort zone to be challenged and molded. 

i'm also so thankful for the opportunity to get to know my old friends better (: its something that i always pray for, and he answered it through the events of yesterday... i'm still trembling inside as i replay the events of yesterday, but i know that He is sovereign over all. He picks me up when I fail Him countless times, and deals with me with patience. His plans are mysterious and unexpected, but I can trust in his good purpose and molding to equip me for His work (: Thank you my Jesus (: