I watched this show called "A Long Way Down" about these 4 strangers who met at the top of a building on new year's eve, all with the motive of killing themselves. it is there that they found that they were surprisingly similar, although all had very different backgrounds in life. 

Maybe, like them, I just want change? Just any sort of change?

But I guess that is something that only happens in America... Singaporeans rarely make themselves vulnerable to people they don't know. We are too preoccupied with awkwardness/ following unspoken social codes. 

Im not really sure where this post is going, but I was hoping that if I write out what I was thinking about, maybe I might feel less confused/ less of whatever I am feeling right now. Although I think it is not happening...