Wednesday, March 01, 2017
well, today was not my best day.
it was the first day of construction and I already made 3 mistakes. :/
my boss is not happy at all, and he expects PERFECTION, which I always thought was something that is possible for me, since i am a perfectionist.
but sigh. its my forgetfulness that is getting the better of me! i find it hard to remember things even when i am not stressed. So when I am actually stressed, it is almost impossible for me to remember anything! ): so, naturally when i found that i made a mistake, it made me so on edge the whole meeting, that i totally missed out some things which i needed to do there on site.
I was wondering why God made me this way, so super forgetful.
Then I came across this article about "The Fourfold Beauty of a Godly Woman".
It made me realize that I need to hope in God! recently i've been learning that it is sooo important to recall God's promises to mind, so that I can kill sin. And then this articles also says "A woman who hopes in God is well acquainted with the character of the Promiser and the specifics of this promises. She spends time with him in his word and in prayer, and she believes in his gospel and finds shelter in his name." So we do not hope in just a "nice God out there who will help me", but to dig into His word to know for sure what God has promised me.
The article also reminded me that I need to stop being afraid. "A woman who hopes in God is not afraid, because she knows her God. She is not afraid of the path that God has called her to walk. She is not afraid of sickness. She is not afraid of the future. She is not afraid of death and dark valleys. She entrusts to God her children, her marriage, and her ministry. She advances the kingdom through fearless submission to God's design for womanhood, marriage, motherhood, and ministry, because she hopes in God."
I am so afraid when I make mistakes, and so afraid when I know I have something to lose. I know I tell other people to trust God, but it is really so difficult to do! It is so difficult to trust Him with my job. I pray that He will be able to show me which of His promises I can cling to, so that I can recall the promise, and believe it!
avoid the aliens;
11:35 PM
